Facebook Fast

That's right. I have successfully not been on Facebook for about 2 days now. And I plan on not going on until next Friday. I don't really have a good reason. I think it's mostly that I know what I'll do on there (aside from waste time), and that would just be worse than not going on at all. Besides, now my blog is getting updated a lot more often

I need to do things today. Dang. I have to finish a paper (which actually will require a lot of work, hence the reason I'm procrastinating it right now), finish my D&C hw, which shouldn't take too long, do 10 more pages of reading (I already did the first 20), and revise a different essay, oh and read something from Machiavelli, but that's not due until Tuesday, so I've got some time.

Let me just say this. Facebook sucks. I hate that I'm addicted to it. And it's really annoying to go on the internet and impulsively want to go to a website that just wastes my time and makes me feel like I have no real friends.

Anyway, I need to stop procrastinating because that list of stuff isn't going get itself done. Plus I have other chores I have to do today.

Antelope Island

I will admit that this post is long overdue, but for the 4th of July weekend, Jordan and I and my family went to Antelope Island. Jordan and I only stayed Saturday, but we hiked around and it was fun.

Despite it being called Antelope Island, there were actually a lot of Buffalo


We even saw one run into the middle of the road! It was pretty crazy actually. We hung out with Peter and Rachel for a bit and then went on our own hike.

As you can tell, we had to mentally prepare ourselves first. :)



But after that, we were ready (well, mostly)














The hike was pretty long, so we had to stop and rest/take pictures










...and dance



But after hours and hours of hiking and me complaining and Jordan not giving up, we finally made it to the top! And what a beautiful sight it was!



And then we skipped down the hill :) (and by hill, I mean mountain)

These made me laugh

BYU Police Beat:

July 26: At 3:30 in the morning, a custodian said she saw a car parked in an unauthorized area, taking up multiple parking spots. She said a man inside the car ducked down when he saw her. When police arrived, they found two students kissing in the front seat. The police advised the students to take their activities to another location.

July 8: A student reported a sex offense occurring at Wyview Park. When an officer arrived, he found a male and female making out. Both parties were clothed. The officer suggested they find another location to continue such activities.

July 12: Students were reported yelling outside Wyview Park. An officer asked them to be quiet.

July 6: A student reported a group of students picking up a car and moving it to a different parking stall. Police spoke with the owner of the car, who moved it back. There was no damage to the car.

July 1: Three students were reported for suspicious behavior at Wyview Park. When police arrived, they found the students were having a picnic and left.

June 26: Students were reported to be trespassing in a
construction site near the Morris Center. The students claimed to be freshmen who were lost. The reporting officer redirected them.

June 24: A 5-year-old was reported missing at the Smith Fieldhouse. The child was reunited with his mom.

haha, anyway, I just love BYU

I Miss You Already

The song Mr. Lonely has been on repeat in my head all day. Weird, because I hardly know the sing, but that doesn't stop it from playing again and again.

I have to admit though, missing you is different than it was for other people. It's so weird. I don't quite understand it.

I think I would have been okay if I didn't go to your house. That was a mistake. Only because your mom knew. If I'd known she knew, I would have stayed home. Given you the guitar.

I know, I'm pathetic. Especially since it's only day 3 of 10 days. Gosh, that makes me even more depressed. Wait, did I say 10? I meant 12. Twelve days...that's kind of a long time to go without someone you're used to seeing every day.

Maybe it will get easier when I actually can't see you, when you'll be so far gone that maybe I won't even think about you. "Out of sight, out of mind," right?

Or was it "absence makes the heart grow fonder"??

Now even the things that used to distract me aren't working. I just get nothing done at all. Maybe nothing is too strong a word. I can't be doing nothing. And I wouldn't let myself even if I could.

Ugh, I hate feeling this way. It's depressing. I'm depressing

At least I get to talk to you every day. Even if it is only via letters/journal (that fortunately, I don't even have to publish). Not that I have to publish this. I realize it's solely a matter of choice

But sometimes I like to pretend people actually read my blog.

I wish I were a poet.

What are you really afraid of?

When people talk about trials, they always talk about trials they've gone through in the past. No one wants to get up at sacrament meeting and admit that they are going through something really hard right now. Nope. It's always after the fact.

Why do we do that? What are we really afraid of?

Admitting out loud that you're struggling means that you not only have to admit it to someone else, but to yourself as well. Why would you want to do something that would potentially cause you more pain?

But why can't we ask for help? Is it really all that bad to say to someone else, "you know what? I'm struggling right now, and I would appreciate your help"? Or "no, I'm not really okay" or whatever. There have been so many times where I have offered up a listening ear, only to not be taken seriously. I know of many others who are willing to listen who are never spoken to about such troubles.

I'm not saying that you should go tell everyone your problems, but you should tell someone, right? People care. Give them credit.

My Apartment is Really Hot

Today I realized that I have a lot of homework. It's not due tomorrow or anything, but I know if I put it off (like I'm doing right now), I will certainly regret it later. The problem is, my apartment is really really hot. I even have the A/C on and it doesn't seem to be working.

So because my apartment is really, really hot, I just don't feel like doing anything productive. And I'm really tired. Wow, writing that made me feel even more tired. I think I just need to get some cold air and get back to work. Otherwise next week will suck.

Music

There is music for every mood, right? When you're happy, sad, angry, joyful, fun, in love... But what do you play when you're heartbroken?